Socks&Peas

In some eyes, I’m just a girl with a face and nothing else because they didn’t want to see anything else but the skin that covers my flesh.

In some eyes, I’m that girl who lost her way but will fall on her mistakes to gain her wisdom in life.

In some eyes, I have a heart and thoughts that are so treasurable because they have the heart, gave me their time to see what was held in my brain.

In some eyes, I’m that girl who can say something from her heart and make that person think twice about their actions because I happen to be lucky to have met them in our paths and gain their trust. It’s depends on how close they want me to touch their opinion and conscious. Every person has that one person that could tell the other what’s really in their heart and slap them dead to reality. Some try/wish with their hardest might to be that person to someone, but it’s either you walk into acceptance or you are humiliated that you lashed out everything you believe in and no luck. Naked with hurt. 

I don’t want to be just a face and nothing else when I have to come for what needs to be done because in my eyes and in my heart, I may a make difference for some eyes. 

Humanahumana.

This place is soooo healthylicous! Becoming my one of my favorite places. Everything is made fresh so my taste buds are exploding with satisfaction. The salad is crunch crunch crunch and the chicken is soo sweet because of the slices of apple with bell peppers and pecans. & their muffin that has raisins, little pieces of carrot and cinnamon! <3

Nom nom nom

If you run away every time things need to get mended or you need to step up with honesty, you will end up with nothing to love in your heart. Because powerful bonds don’t just sit at your door step for you to have, you must fight, strive and mend the string into a rope that could never be tamed.

It kills me. It kills me that you still linger on my mind. I know when to hold and when to let go because my conscious would usually jerk my heart when it’s worth my time, but this buried thought I tucked away for almost a year, always seem to come back and haunt me. Taunt me. Maybe it’s something I need to grab hold and settle once in for all because this is quite unsettling to the brain and it’s driving me insane. (Rhymed) Another life lesson. There must be a reason behind all of this commotion going through my files of thoughts. I want nothing but to mend my mind to peace. No clingy, just a fix on the unsettlement. I need this. Need this to be done and duct taped so I can completely pack up.

I have a deadline in this city.

I can not decipher this. I am so fustrated.

It’s been months since I’ve picked up a book and read on my own time. I just finished one and it resurfaced the good feeling I get when I read. What’s your favorite novel?

Just when I clicked for a new post, an uproar of hisssing and meowings came from right outside of my patio. Poor alley cats, they have problems, too. Roarrrrrrr! /Hissss. Stop bickering, it hurts my heart. 

Birthdays. Birthdays. Birthdays. 

We “dated” when we were damn young and then years later, we resurfaced our relationship when we got a tad bit older, but with the little maturity that we both held, it was not enough for it to work. Things happen for a reason you kept repeating tonight and that’s actually my motto, too. Young and naive that’s what we were. It was just part of learning life and that’s what we’re still processing. Years passed and surprisingly, I care. You care. A whole lot. The end. Our life is moving along whether downhill or up at the moment, I know our paths are heading for the damn great better. It’s amazing how we went our separate ways for a couple of years to go through a handful of different idiotic actions to only make us better people with new perspectives for our future. I’m glad I wished you a happy birthday personally. You’re growing, I’m growing, but you will always be the immature ex of mine. Haha

Our history stays in our hearts. 

Unconditional/conditional love. Puppy love. Lust. Love that last. Do you know why we have this kind of mess?! Because Cupid is an infant. Who assigned this kid to strike love into souls. Haha, I don’t think this child knows what he’s causing. Shoot, this kid is nonsense. No wonder love is a mess. 

Haha humoring myself. 

One guy who means a lot to you.

J.C.

What can I say, the good ol’ days started back when Mama dragged me to the temple and that’s where I met this guy. I think. Or was it RSM? He was so full of himself. Haha, still is today but that’s what makes him, him. I love this guy sooo much. For years, I complained, why can’t I have a guy I could get close with without ending the friendship with.. well, life. He was right under my nose. Being by my side without realizing the bond we created. From hyperventilating from an overdose of alcohol to birthdays, he was there for me. I’m freaking thankful I got this guy. Calls me his bestie. :) Friends do come and go because of life, but I have it in my heart to know that he’s going to be in my life till we can’t wipe our own wrinkle cheeks because we’re so damn wrinkly weak. He is a constant reminder for myself to give and love. Told him, he has to be at my wedding as one of my bride maid. That’s how much he means to me.

“Are you going to watch me sleep or what?”